So, it's been ages since I posted. With my recent move and various acts of chaos in my life, I haven't had much free time, but that's not really it. I think this is why: Do you know how tedious it is to write as not-yourself? Let me explain. I wrote everything in this blog myself, but when I read what I've got so far, I don't like how I come across, so much. I make awesome points, and as being right about stuff all the time is one of my super powers, I'm right about stuff. But it's all, I dunno. Like, I'm trying too hard to sound professional. Not that I'm not a professional. Let me get back on track here!
When I started this blog I had already been reading multiple blogs of other devs. I was brand new to the scene and tried to gleen as much wisdom from the veterans and other creatives as I could. I still do. All those blogs, at least the one I followed, are well-written, informative and often full of nifty little goodies that I can't wait to try implementing, myself. On top of that, I discovered game journalist Daav Valentaten. The guy has kind of become my go-to for the age-old question: "Should I buy that game or does it suck?", because uncannily, everything he says is great turns out to be something I want to make babies with, and everything he says is terrible, is actually terrible. And he's a super-smart dude who has a real way with using words to express what his mind wants to say.
When I started blogging, I wanted to write like Daav, and I wanted my blog to be informative and have that "teachy" tone of the other dev blogs I had read. And, as it turns out, I can't write like Daav. Maybe with a lot of practice I can learn to be as consistently eloquent. But when I look at my previous blogs sounding like not-me, coming across teachy, like the blog of a dev who has been in the industry for a long time, I don't like it. I'm new and excited to be here. So, why shouldn't I write that way? Here's my resolution. To hell with teachy. I shouldn't sound teachy and veteran-y (not a word, I know). I am in the most awesome industry on the planet. I love my job immensely. Every day, I learn something new and really cool that I can't wait to try out. When I learned about fuzzy logic it blew my mind. Neural networking. Holy crap! How awesome is that? Even on the most routine days of writing endless amounts of code or laboring over design documents, something exciting is always right around the corner. I always dreamed of making games. Now I live it.
My blog should be written from the perspective I actually have. Game development, when seen through my eyes, shouldn't be text-book, routine, or matter of fact. It should be seen with the amazement and wonder I see it with every day. Because, every algorithm I've learned, from bubble sorting to flocking behavior AI, rocks! Every character I create or story I write opens a whole world to me, with endless staggering potential. I could be earning next to nothing, and to be honest, sometimes that is exactly what I earn, and I wouldn't want to work in any other field than game development. And that's how I'm going to write about it from now on.
Hold on to your butts!
